Male' is not crowded....

Why do some people say that Male' is crowded? I just don't think it is.

I was walking from my office to my home, when i noticed this, that Male' is not crowded. I had a conference in the office and it was late. Around 12:30 am. I had walked for about 5-7 minutes when i noticed it. There was traffic as if it was night 8:00pm. I did look at my watch to make sure whether it was really 12:30 am. It was. But the traffic was no less.

Even in the supposed to be dead of the night, there is traffic on the roads. Not heavy traffic, but enough. Some time back, at the dead of the night you will be able to see only a few pedestrians. But this value has increased in a very short time.

Due to the area of the ground being full, the buildings have started reaching for the stars. Some buildings are in a dangerous state too. With a small area base, and a height improper to its base. It seems that now law does not allow us to build like that. Law has a scale to set the height of a building, according to its base. This also shows that there are more than enough inhabitants in Male'

Where ever we go, be it an Office, a Bank, an evening walk, you see the place full of people. More like packed sardines. If a car pauses in front of a house, it doesn't take 3 minutes for the annoying honks of motor cycles to begin....non stop.

It is very clear, right? Male' is not crowded, as you can see. Male' is just OVER CROWDED.

Life is fair....

It is a common word for us to hear "life is so unfair". A lot of us think that life is just cruel. Many don't even try to think about the things going on, just take the decision that life is unfair, after a simple event.

If we think carefully, all the things going on are for a purpose. You are on earth for a purpose too. When something bad happens, you will feel hopeless. You may want to die. But few know that it is a test. what we call an 'imthihaan'.

Any way you cant say life is unfair, after looking at the unfair punishments given to people, looking at the cruel deeds done by others and by the misfortune events happening to you. It is because this isn't "the life". The life is yet to come. There truth will be revealed. Everything will be fair. And then 'the life' will be fair, for eternity....

My sister....

Being the eldest brings happy emotions to me...many emotions. With 2 other younger bros, I have been living.

Since I became mature enough, enough to understand the life, the events happening around me...I had wanted a sister. A sibling sister. I hear some of my friends talking about their sisters. As I was in Majeedhiyya, I hear these stories quite often. Well, their are some times talks which you won't call so nice, but common. Like "kokko set kohdheyn v nu". Well, honestly, I don't have , didn't have, and surely will not have any of those thoughts. But I had wanted a sister.

I hear stories from few girl friends too. [NOTE: That is not Gf....it is female friends]. I listen in awe to their stories, of how they admire their brothers. How their brothers had helped them, how they have shared secrets with them, secrets from their own parents. I think it was cool. Ever since I began to understand...I wanted a sis. To help her. To share secrets. To tease. To cry with. To laugh with. To laugh at.

It was the year 2005 when I knew my mother was pregnant. I thought..."no wonder both parents were so happy lately". Well, as you may have guessed, I was happy. Very happy. I hoped it would be a girl this time.

One of my younger brothers have died in her womb, few months before birth. It was the brother next to me. She didn't give birth to him. Cesarean was done. She was in dad's island, and didn't get much medical treatment. She tells that she told repeatedly to the health assistants that there was no movement in her belly...she blamed them. I also blame them. I don't remember those days, guess I was too young.

As this incident also had happened, and it was a boy....she haven't got a girl all together... Every time after prayers, I have prayed repeatedly..."Oh God!...please let it be a girl this time....please..!" Before the waiting time came...I had so much imagination going on inside me....all these years hope. My parents dreams. I actually didn't know how I felt....

Days passed....and one day after coming home from a scanning session, she told that the doctors informed that it was a girl. Well...u know how that would make us feel. But we never believed it 100%. There was a little doubt. It is god who is responsible for these things...and there just might be a fault with the machine.....who knows....only god knows...

Finally the day came...she was in labor room. Dad was with her. I was in charge of my two brothers. Dad didn't even call even in the afternoon. Guess he was too happy to give the news. That evening a sister (dhuru dhatha eh) came and told us to get ready to visit my mom. We were excited. We got ready and went. She was in IGMH.

Walking along the corridor...towards the wards...my heart kept drumming in my chest....[it is right now even, as i am writing this part]. We entered the ward. There were so many people around my mothers bed. Some from my mothers island. Some from my fathers island. Some their friends.

I stopped in my tracks. THERE WAS NO BABY. They were all CRYING!!! I wasn't unconscious...but I wasn't conscious either...I was in a daze till I came to villingili that night...didn't even notice the ferry. I was too sad to stop crying in front of all those people...neither were my mom and dad. She got a girl....and the girl died.

I did go to her funeral...there was no kashu namadhu, as she didn't breath through her nose....yes, she died 2-3 hours before birth. The doctors are to be blamed. They had repeatedly tried, and sent her home, while she was saying that she felt pain in her stomach. At funeral I was a little calm...but at the moment dad put the cotton piece on her face...I just couldn't hold back. I cried and sobbed.

All my dreams....shattered. All my hopes... Just think how my parents would have felt. All these years hope....

But you will be there right? You may not have seen this world....but You are there right? You didn't see us....still you saw us right? Please tell me....tell me you will be there for us....tell me you will meet us....there is a day....Oh! God....Please let us meet her...she is not dead in me...I'm sure she is alive in my parents heart too....please....say that you love us too....I will never forget you....I love you sister!..........I love you.....